Then on Valentine’s Day, he went out to buy me flowers and returned three hours later with nothing.
I did not confront him.
I called Grant Miller, a private investigator.
“I want to know who she is,” I told him.
“That’s all.”
Two weeks later, he called me.
He asked if I was sitting down.
I told him I already was.
“Ma’am,” he said, “the woman is in your own family.”
I thought of a cousin.
A sister-in-law.
Someone farther away.
Never, not even for a second, did I imagine my own sister.
Until I opened the first photograph.
Eric and Natalie leaving a hotel in Brooklyn.
She was wearing the blouse I had bought her for her birthday.
That night, I understood that I had spent years sleeping beside one stranger and sharing holiday dinners with another.
For four months, I kept that photograph hidden.
For four months, I smiled through Christmas dinner while Natalie sat beside me carving the turkey.
For four months, every time anyone asked how Eric and I were doing, I answered, “Everything’s fine.”
And now she stood there with a microphone in her hand, telling the whole room something I had already known for four months.
Everyone looked at me.
They expected me to fall apart.
To sob.
To run out of my own anniversary party.
Instead, I stood up slowly.
I smoothed my black dress.
And I walked toward her.
“Put the microphone down, Natalie.”