I backed away carefully, picked up my sneakers, and left the apartment as quietly as I had entered.
Ten minutes later, I came back.
This time, I made noise.
I jingled my keys, stomped on the mat, and called out, “Babe? I’m home. It’s pouring out there!”
Luke came out of the bedroom smiling.
His phone was nowhere in sight.
“Hey,” he said, kissing my forehead. “You almost got soaked.”
“Class got canceled.”
“Want me to start dinner?”
“That’d be amazing. Thank you.”
I smiled.
I laughed at his story about a coworker’s dog.
I ate the pasta he made.
I drank the wine he poured.
I kissed him goodnight.
And all the while, something inside me was quietly packing its bags.
Later, I stood in the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.
The woman staring back at me looked tired.
But not broken.
“No crying,” I whispered. “No confrontation. And no more wasting years.”